The Spiritual Paradox

I'm still a bit puzzled by my last reading, well, it hasn't made any sense as yet, perhaps it will become clearer later on. Today I used the Faery Wicca Tarot and asked "what's happening today?" I drew the Eight of Swords (Aer), 'The Hanged Man', and the 'Nine of Pentacles' (Domhan).

Faery Wicca Tarot

© Kisma K. Stepanich, 

Illustrated by Renee Christine Yates

The 'Eight of Swords' tells me that I am being blind to myself whilst 'The Hanged Man' tells me, take time out to work out what that is and to surrender to it. The 'Nine of Pentacles' tells me that there will be much to gain, if I do!

These cards are pointing out that I am forgetting to take time out from the PC to chill, relax and meditate. I started up an astrology blog yesterday, because I enjoy studying the Tarot's associations with astrology and love studying and watching the movement of the planets, however whilst I am really enjoy myself I know that I am losing focus of other areas in my life. You can't be very magical sat in front of the PC all the time! Can you?

'The Hanged Man' is astrologically associated with Neptune - who represents one's intuitive, spiritual, compassionate, psychic nature. 'The Hanged Man' is also a paradox, and so am I! I am trying to advance myself spiritually, writing about Tarot and Astrology and yet I am sacrificing my spiritual routines in doing do! 

The 'Nine of Pentacles' suggests that I have found  spiritual contentment now I have started up my Astrology blog. When looked at with the two previous cards it tells me that I must not lose sight of my responsibilities to myself and to take time out to relax too, because there will be much to gain spiritually and physically when I do. I also need to drink less coffee because its making me edgy!

ETA: I just added some afterthoughts to yesterdays reading. 

Why Did Brittany Murphy Die? - An Update

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According to Wikipedia -  "At 08:00 (16:00 GMT) on December 20, 2009, the Los Angeles Fire Department responded to "a medical request"[26] at the Los Angeles home Murphy and Monjack shared. She apparently collapsed in a bathroom. Firefighters attempted to resuscitate Murphy on the scene. She was subsequently transported to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center, where she was pronounced dead on arrival at 10:04 after going into cardiac arrest.

Shortly after her death, Assistant Chief Coroner Ed Winter told the Associated Press: "It appears to be natural." An autopsy was performed on December 21, 2009. Her death certificate listed the cause of death as "deferred".

On February 4, 2010, the Los Angeles County coroner stated that the primary cause of Murphy's death was pneumonia, with secondary factors of iron-deficiency anemia and multiple drug intoxication. The drugs ingested were all said to be prescription medications. Further details on the drugs involved are due to be released when a full report is published".

So it seems she ultimately died from a change in her heart as a result of pneumonia, with the use of multiple drugs and iron deficiency contributing to her death, perhaps she did mildly abuse herself through dieting. A very unfortunate and saddening tragedy."

Whatever Happens, Hang On In There!

Argh! It's a miserable cold, drizzly Monday, and after a horrible nights sleep I feel a bit narked off. This mornings cards didn't make my day feel much better either! Using the Gendron Tarot, I asked "What do I need to know today?" and drew 'The Tower', 'The Chariot' and 'Justice'.

The Gendron Tarot

© US Games Systems Inc.

The cards are all major Arcana cards, it seems there is a bigger theme going on, a bigger theme that I just don't want to deal with today!

'The Tower' indicates that something is going to kick me up the backside, 'The Chariot' tells me I need to just keep on going despite the kick up the kick up the backside and 'Justice' tells me that the butt kick will plateau and integrate itself into my life in a balanced way. Just have to work out what this kick ass theme is going to be!

It might be to do with my Tribunal appeal, which I was thinking of discontinuing since there seemed to be no point in carrying on with as my case had already been dealt with my the court. 'The Tower' fits because it was something I had forgotten about before it rudely steeped back into my life after waiting so long for it to go through. 'The Chariot' tells me to continue the appeal regardless of how I feel about it (a nightmare!), and 'Justice' implies that I will, well, get some justice! However I don't continuing the appeal will have a positive effect on my life, but perhaps I should do it anyway.

Perhaps 'Justice' implies that I will receive news of my Court appearance. I am due to appear in court in the near future to testify against someone accused of assaulting my neighbour. I'm not looking forward to it, but I'll do it because I'm not letting the horrible thug get away with it (Chariot). It does have its implications. I am concerned about revenge attacks from the accused (Tower), but then again, they can give it their best shot!

In a literal sense, perhaps someone close to me might have an accident (Tower) travelling (Chariot) which may see them get in trouble with the law! (Justice).

Generally, the theme of these cards tells me that there will be a sudden change in my life, that I may or may not like, but there will be a need to remain strong and to hang on in there, because my life will become more balanced and justified as a result. 

UPDATE: 09/02/2010

OK, There was a sudden change, but it was of my own doing. I decided to start up an astrology blog and stayed up - somewhat compulsively - into the early hours doing it (Chariot). The reason I did it because I had fancied doing it for a while and felt lopsided not being able record my astrology thoughts too! So I do feel a bit more balanced as a result (Justice). 

I am also going to go ahead with my appeal, despite not really wanting to. I thought I would go with the cards since there was nothing to lose, well, except more dignity! 

Hey! I just thought! 'The Tower' is a humiliating card, since it implies being knocked down when you least expect it. 'The Chariot' is a card that say to get up and keep on going, regardless of how you feel. I just hope 'Justice' really does bring justice!